Can I get some new friends please!! Im sick of the ones I have. It’s like all they know is how to use you and build you up so they can be the ones who break you down! I just want one time where they can be happy for me or feel a little symphony for my sorrows!! I’m done being a voice of reason or just being a shoulder for them to use! I sick of bring the cheerleader for everyone, the one that wants nothing more for my friends to be happy with no judgment just support no matter if it’s wrong or right. And you know what’s hard not having the same from people I call friends! And Maybe it’s my fault cause I’m not the type to express my feelings when something is bothering me but sometimes I just think that my friends would know when I hurting just by looking at me cause I sure know when my friends are hurting just by looking at them! I never even bother sharing my feelings with them cause I know it’s pointless! They only two people that I do tell when I’m having a bad day or a great one is my Mother and my best friend of 10+ years Katie. But it’s hard being around a group of people who don’t even bother asking how was your day and if they do ask and you answer back with it was alright or not so good that as far as them caring goes! But you know what at the end of the day I guess all that matters is that I ask them what made their day bad or good because I know that what really matters is that I treat them how I wish they treated me! Cause at the end of the day my problems are ULTIMATELY mine and mine alone to face!!
